Thursday, December 9, 2010

Myspace

Logging onto MySpace now affords the opportunity to see the way things were only a few years ago, a moment frozen in time from way back when people used to use it. It’s oddly melancholic at that, because even though you recognize everyone, faces, relationships, etc., (it has, after all, only been three years, hasn’t it?) there’s a sort of… I suppose melancholy at the realization that “That used to be me… huh…” and how, even with how little has changed, you still miss such oddly meaningless things from waaayyy back in the long-long-ago of 2007. People who have moved, friends who are gone, and you look back and say in your head to the you from not three years ago “You have no idea what’s going to happen in the next three years, do you…”

I’m sorry, I’m being depressed at the moment. This is the first time I’m posting on this blog in too damn long and I don’t have good news. At this moment I’m unemployed again, waiting to receive a UI payment, likely to start again very soon, but not in a way that I have all that much long-term security or stability. No idea how I’m going to keep bills paid until something comes through, and no idea how we’re doing Christmas. I haven’t made anything like the progress I promised myself I’d make on putting out a proper self-made game within the year, don’t have the free time or focus to do it within the year, should probably just hammer through it I guess. Most of all, haven’t updated the blog in forever except to be all damned emo about everything.

Bleh, its 3AM Thursday morning and I’m feeling depressed for no goddam reason. Go about your day.